not much diaper fun lately. I keep planning to and then I just don't. :( Today I was going to try out the free Bianco diaper I got at last years DiaperFest. It's supposed to be wonderfully thick and last all day. but I never feel like I have the time to wear it all day without interruption. I could have today but ... dunno why I just didn't


Had a breakup last week. It was time, not that it was easy or painless. Having someone to cuddle after a breakup makes dating a LOT easier. Kinda promising to myself that I'm not doing any relationship stuff for the rest of this year. Things changed rapidly and far too often this fall. So I'm settling down and purposely Not dating (courting) anyone right now. I think

My Mistress is keeping me in an Male Chastity Device all the time, except when she or my wife have a use for that bit of my anatomy. That's an interesting experience. It's screwing with my perception of masculinity and type A behavior. I don't have a pee pee, so how can I be a man? I'm not in charge, so how can I be the go-getter type in the office?

Early mornings were getting difficult. Men's bodies use erections to help control urine. 3 hours before I want to wake up, I'd be awaken by pain and an erection that wouldn't go away until I peed. After a bit too much of that I decided to mix my hobbies and wear diapers to bed at night. :) I've gotten to the point that I only need to roll over on my side to pee while laying down.

There's a movie out there called "Preaching to the Perverted". Is excellent. Lots of fetish going on there. Very hot, but only R rated. Sadly, only about 1 second of someone who Might be an AB.

Went to the Vermont Diaper Fest. It was terrific. Wish I'd taken the Friday off. Got to meet a lot of really nice people. Got to have my heart warmed but seeing lots of people dressed up like I enjoy. :) Mostly didn't pat any strangers on their padded bottoms.

I can definately recommend weekends in Vermont for whatever reason. It was a wonderful get away.

Mentioned the pretty pink dresses I saw to my SL Mistress. Now I've got pretty pink dresses to wear in Second Life. :) :( Things go fast there.

Anyone ever heard of or been to the Vermont Diaper Fest?

made myself a pair of plastic panties :) they turned out pretty well but I think I'll make the leg holes bigger next time.

Orgasm control is driving me bonkers.

Question: Say you meet with a couple different local diaper lovers. The conversation over chai goes well. Then what? What do you get together to do?

I bundled myself up in as many layers as I could. Diapers, Red one-piece long johns. Track pants, shirt, snowpants. Then I put on my bondage mittens and topped it off with my old coat with the broken zipper. This zipper travels up easy enough. To get it down, you need fingernails and a good angle. With the mittens on, I was trapped.

Then I went out to the living room where I had a movie all cued up and an open bottle of my favorite, Mike's hard lemonade. Ahhhhh.. A good evening.

BTW, apart from the wonderful bondage feeling, the too many layers does wonders for sore muscles after a hard day of your favorite exercise.

Saturday I got cuddles from my wife and my girlfriend at the same time. *purr*

This week, there was drama. My wife and Mistress both tried to use me last Friday. Obviously that doesn't work. Instead, we all got grumpy and no one had any fun. For most of this week, things were in an uncomfortable state of flux. But finally, the two of them emailed each other and found a compromise that should work. My Mistress will having a standing date with me every Friday or Saturday and my wife can work around that.

To add to my part of the drama, my Mistress enjoys orgasm control. I gave up touching myself altogether. That part of my body is no longer mine. It only gets attention when one of my Ladies decides that it should. *purr* Well, last Friday had been 1 week without orgasm. Then the drama happened. Then another week rolled by. :/ But last night finally resolved that. *contented sigh*

Other things going on... The local TNG group (BDSM kinksters under 35yrs) talked in an accepting way about diapers! I'm thinking about coming out to them. That's a very odd idea for me. I've been coming out more and more. It started with just people I was getting sexually involved with. Then I told my closest friends. Then some local ABDL's that I've met. hehe, I sound like a wuss. Only talking about my kink to people who can't throw stones. How hard must it have been to come out as gay at first...

And, Mako, I met someone up here who knows you a little. Also, I heard you on Poly Weekly. I heard the name and went, "I wonder if that's the same Mako". Sure enough. :)

weeee

met a local DL in person. :) It gets easier each time.

public place, cup of tea, relax, talk, say goodbye, maybe talk some more later.

So when the BDSM people in the local club say that I can come to their party in "fetish attire" do you think they mean that I can wear diapers and a T-shirt? (blah blah, I'd cover up until I was inside and away from non-kinky eyes.)

Sometimes it feels like the world is all about me being happy.

Then a little later, it's all about everyone else being happy and forgetting that I exist.

My dommes turned out to be human and in need of comfort which of course I provided as much as I was able. Now though... the submission doesn't work.

Maybe I just need some diaper time.

Diaper night!!

Stuffer, stuffer, pull up cloth, pin on cloth, pink plastic pants!

:D


Wait? I get comments? Inconceivable! I'll have to go back and respond or something. Never crossed my mind to check for comments.

Lots going on lately. Joined the local BDSM groups. Had lots of fun in Second Life in a place someone set up called the Diaper Academy. Sadly, they closed down already. If a new ABDL place opens up there I'll let ya know. My avatar in SL has been collared by a Mistress. That's lots of fun and good therapy for my otherwise unfulfilled need to be topped.

Today, because I asked for it, my wife put me in triple thick cloth diapers and mittens. :)

My online Mistress, in Second Life, has taken control of my orgasms away from me. I'm not allowed to bring myself to orgasm anymore. Well, once a week I get permission. This restriction has been great for my mental state. I'd been focusing on sex and my own pleasure to the point that nothing worked right. Somehow I'd gotten so interested in sex that I'd driven away my partners. I'm not really sure how that happened but, under restriction of my Domme, it seems to be healing.

Wife: 1
Girlfriends:2
Sexual fun comes from: Second Life


This is why I hate being a other than normal. Most of the time I wouldn't give up y freakiness for the world but lately...

Anyway, it's fun to dress up the way you really want to (in SL) and hang out with people with the same kink.

My rubber pants from AC Medical practically exploded when I tried to put them on. Same as usual, I was careful not to use me fingertips on the rubber and the pants just tore for like a foot! Huge hole, total waste. :(

I think this happened because of the way that they were constructed, being sewn rather than glued.

Friday night I went out for some Indian food with Wife and girlfriend N. Then wife heads home and we see Knocked Up at the local college. Good date movie. Not the usual thoughtless drivel. If you don't remember, it's about coping with the pregnancy from a one night stand. It's difficult for everyone but lead female invites the fellow to be a part of his child's life. Lead male starts putting some effort into his life. Good movie.

Yesterday I met someone in real life who shares my diaper fetish. Very nice guy, he contacted me on aby.com. He had some stories of people making inappropriate advances on there. We've both heard stories about how meet-ups can go embarassingly wrong. Our last emails before the meeting involved phrases like "We're going to look like normal people for this right?" and "I'm only interested in meeting people who are over 18."

So anyway, we met somewhere public, talked a bunch and are apparently both looking forward to hanging out some more. Poor guy's never worn cloth diapers. We're gonna have to do something about that. :)

I'm polyamorous. Just so you know. New this week, I'm out about my diaper fetish to almost everyone in my poly family now. It's weird to talk about diapers with someone who's outside it and who won't be playing with me. Liberating, but odd. I went for an after-midnight walk with my GF's hubby. We had a long talk that started with venting about our respective wives. Then we just kept chatting and covered all sorts of stuff, VAX computer days at college, philosophy tempered with pragmatism, starting local munches.

GFhubby :) wants to start a local poly munch. I want to start a local ABDL group. Woohoo! I feel like an ABDL group will be les awkward somehow. Somehow the shared kink is going to weed out the annoying fringe people who just want the nookie?

Still haven't worn diapers around my GF or her hubby. Kinda want to. It would be a deeper level of acceptance from them if they actually saw me in 'em. But, I don't know if they are ready for that and I don't know why I'd really need them too. There's a desire in me to wear diapers more often. Since my life is very busy, I'd need to combine the wearing with other things like hanging out with friends.

Hmmm, forming a ABDL club where I live. I want to do this right?

+50% chance of pretty good group that makes me think that I'm not crazy for being ABDL.
+10% chance of making a good friend.
-1% chance of someone being a dofus in public and embarassing me.
-0.001% chance of something going really, really wrong, like newspaper wrong.
-100% chance of taking effort to co-ordinate.

I'm back! I brought a big box of diaper stuff with me and spent about half the time in diapers. For the first couple days I was in diapers around the clock. The Abriform super ji-normous + the super huge Abriform stuffers.... it was nice. And I didn't trust them enough to really drink enough so they ended up being mostly just sweaty. silly me.

Then my lady buys me some panties and makes me wear those for a couple days. It got me all wiggly in my knees to be forced into panties and diapers. I literally packed a single pair of underwear for the whole trip and I only used that to keep the disposable diapers from chaffing.

Then it's back into diapers including for a trip to the amusement park! We rode this boat flume ride that drenches you. Like a whole shower worth of wet in about 1 second. It was my favorite ride and I rode it so much that my lady finally sat on the side and just watched. :D It was wierd having the ride attendents squishing my diapers with the safety bar all the time.

I went through lots of touristy security checkpoints with my day bag with a diaper change in it. This first guard muttered something under his breath. I didn't hear it and that was the only thing any of them said. So that was very nice.

Still have some of Abriforms left and lots of the diaper doubler pads.